Author's Note #2, (ALL OTHER AUTHORS PLEASE READ): This totally and completely came from my own imagination, so if there's a part of your story that somehow got into mine, it's purely coincendential, so please don't send me hate mail! Someone did it to me and I was completely unaware I had used some of her story in mine, and she was extremely harsh and rude about it. SO if you feel the need, please make it non threatening!
Misery
After "The Dance"...
"When should we tell him?" Mitch asked his wife...or soon not to be.
"I don't know...he just broke up with Joey and it's obvious he's hurting. I don't think he could take something like this," Gale answered solemnly. "He just lost the only thing he could ever hold on to, and unraveling this at the time being would be too much for him."
"You're right. I suppose we'll just have to wait," Mitch agreed.
2 months later...
"I should really go see how he's doing," Joey pondered out loud. "Even though we can't have a non-platonic relationship, I still want to be his friend." She got up and headed to the Leery house.
"Mrs. Leery?" Joey called as she walked in the house.
"Oh, hello, Joey," Gale greeted Joey warmly. Even though she broke Dawson's heart, I still have to be caring.
"Where's Dawson?"
"I don't really know. Probably at the ruins, thinking," Gale replied.
"Okay, thanks!" Joey yelled as she bounded out of the house.
"He sure lost a great girl," Gale sighed to herself. "And one day, she's going to realize what a great guy she gave up."
At the ruins...
Joey walked up, but before she let herself beknownst, she heard Dawson talking to himself.
"God, Jo, why'd you do this to me? Every relationship I could ever depend on has evaporated into thin air...my parents are on the road to divorce, Pacey's always preoccupied with Andie, and with you? I'm not sure where it's headed."
"I knew that at some point, we would break up. I just didn't know that the time would come *this* soon...and that we would part on such bad terms. Well, not exactly bad, but when you say I love you for the first time, you can't call it good, either. But no matter what happens, no matter what life throws at me...I'll still love you. Because I *do* love you, Joey," he whispered.
Oh God, I *really* shouldn't have heard that, Joey thought breathlessly to herself. But I have to go on like I didn't hear that. I'm with Jack now...but do I love him like I did Dawson?
"Dawson?"
Dawson jumped, surprised. "Oh, hey, Joey."
"So how are your parents?" Joey inquired of him.
"They haven't said the big ugly "D" word yet, but they're on their way," Dawson replied sadly. "I know they are."
"So what is that big ugly "D" word? Could it be..." Joey teased, "Dawson?" She then pounced and tickled him. "Are they gonna throw you out or something?"
Dawson laughed until their faces were only inches apart. They shared an intense gaze before Dawson pulled away from her grasp. I can't give into her, I just can't.
"No, the big ugly "D" word is divorce," Dawson told his ex-girlfriend sadly.
"Don't worry, Dawson, everything's going to be all right," was Joey's attempt to comfort him.
"Everything'll be all right when things were the way they used to be," Dawson pessimistic side remarked.
Joey cringed, not knowing what to say. The way things used to be... "But whatever happens, I'm here for you, okay?" she finally reassured him.
Physically, you're here for me, but emotionally, you're with Jack, Dawson thought with despair.
"I have to go, okay?" Joey told him as she got up.
"Okay...see you later, Jo."
Joey smiled gratefully. It was the first time he called her Jo since they broke up.
2 days and a whole lot of screaming and tears later...
"Does Joey know?" Andie asked her boyfriend as they approached Maria's, a middle-class restaurant in downtown Capeside. They were going on a double date with Jack and Joey.
"Probably not," Pacey sighed. "But poor Dawson...everything was abruptly stolen from him, and he doesn't have anywhere to go, except for me. I've been with him since his parents dropped the bomb...there's not much more I can do."
"Do about what?" Joey asked as she and Jack approached the couple.
"Mr. and Mrs. Leery filed for divorce," Pacey responded.
"Oh god, I didn't know!" Joey gasped.
"Figures," Pacey muttered under his breath before thinking twice.
"What's that supposed to mean, Pace?" Joey exclaimed angrily.
"Well, you wouldn't know, would you? You're so occupied with Jack that you can't even see what's right in front of you! Dawson has totally fallen for you, and you're just lucky he's going to wait for you!"
"Dawson won't wait for me!" Joey yelled bitterly.
"Yes, he will, Jo. And he's never *really* needed you before, and now that he does, where are you? With Jack. He was there when your life fell apart and...well, he doesn't want me for comfort, Joey."
The realization of Dawson's love for her hit Joey in the gut. "But..."
"But what, Joey? But he's better off than us, so he can't feel hopeless? But because he still has his parents, he's blissfully happy? Because that's *not* the case. The case is that the only good thing in his life walked out of it when he needed it the most." He turned to his girlfriend. "Come on, Andie." He took her hand and walked off, leaving Joey stunned.
*********
Dawson sat on his bed, wondering what happened to that perfect life he once had. His parents marriage had become another statistic, Pacey was only there out of kindness, and Joey tried to understand, but she was the main problem.
How he wished he could have told her things he never got a chance to say. Like without her, his dreams were empty, his future plans became blank, and when she wasn't in his life, being alive was worthless. Without her, life hadn't a meaning.
"Dawson?" Gale knocked on his door. "I need to work tonight. I won't be home until tomorrow evening. I hope you understand."
Something inside Dawson went off, and he began to explode.
"All I *do* is understand! I spend half the day understanding other people and listening to them bitch and moan about life, yet I don't receive the same treatment! Everyone's so caught up in their problems and wanting advice from me, they can't see that I have problems of my!"
"Oh, honey..." Gale trailed off. She walked over to her son's bed and wrapped her arms around him. He accepted the embrace willingly.
"Why'd she hurt me? Why'd she leave me after she said I love you?" Dawson sobbed on his mother's shoulder.
"Shhh..." his mother whispered, choking back tears. The downside of being a parent is when your child is hurting and you want to change the world so it doesn't hurt anymore, but you know you can't. And that's what Gale was feeling right then.
"It's going to be okay, sweetie, everything's going to be all right," she tried to comfort her son, but as soon as she repeated the words Joey had said two days before, he started sobbing even harder.
And Joey had seen the whole seen from Dawson's window without being noticed. She climbed down the ladder carefully, as so not to be heard.
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