Do I Have to Say the Words? by: Katy


Disclaimer: Screw it. I'm tired, I'm cranky. If they're gonna sue me, let them. I'll give 'em a hah and a hiyah and then I'll kick 'em. Oh, but the song is by Bryan Adams.


Three's a Crowd is my love story series. If you want drama and major action, read Model Behavior. If you want fantasy, read my Fairy Tale Chronicles. If you want me to specially write a story just for you, so that no one but me and you will see it, write me with the kind of story you want and I'll tap away on my comp. I won't write a series for one person, but I'll write a two or three parter. Depends. I've done a four parter for someone who wanted me to make them into a character, but I only did that because I liked their idea.

Summary-*sigh* Love is in the air. For my MB summaries, I do a soap opera type summary, but I'll do a more lovey dovey thing for this one. Hmm.. a bit off the subject, but I've been thinking about the differences between all my stories. MB takes longer to write because they're longer and I have to come up with all kinds of conflict. These are much easier. I can belt out 3 or 4 in an hour. Although I will be *gasp* ending Three's a Crowd soon. I've already written the last 2 stories. Don't worry, it won't be for a little while. I wrote them a while back. I usually write from the end to the beginning. So I know where I'm going. Whoa, I'm way off subject. Ok, Pacey loves Joey, Joey still loves Pacey, but is engaged to Anderson. Dawson and Jen have the perfect relationship…or do they?

Do I Have to Say the Words?

Rescue me from the mire
Whisper words of desire
Rescue me--
Darling rescue me

Joey walked back into her hotel room, taking a deep breath. Anderson stood up from where he was sitting on the couch.

"Jo," he said, taking her in his arms, "are you okay?"

Joey didn't say anything for a moment. Finally she looked up at his concerned face and gave a half-hearted smile. "I'll be fine" she said, "I just need to be held right now."

"Are you sure?" he asked slowly.

"Yeah," she said, "it's nothing."

Anderson took her in his arms and stroked her hair. He knew she was lying. He hadn't seen that look on her face in a long time. And he got the distinct feeling that there were rough times ahead.

With your arms open wide
Want you here by my side
Come to me--
Darling rescue me

Jen glared at Dawson. "We've been planning this for over a year," she said, "I can't believe you just decided to spring this on me. The invitations have been sent out, the flowers are ordered."

Dawson ran his fingers through his hair. "I just don't think we're ready for marriage yet."

Jen gave him an incredulous look. "Excuse me?" she said, "not ready? If I recall, you were the one, who, not six months ago was telling me how ready we were for this."

"I was, but now," Dawson said, "I just don't know."

"All right," Jen said, very upset, "I see what's going on. It's the whole thing with Joey. She's come back and you think you have feelings for her. Maybe she's the one, you don't know where we're at, I don't deserve you, what is it this time Dawson?"

"No, it's," Dawson said, "I'm not in love with Joey. I'm in love with you."

"Then why don't you want to marry me," Jen said, her lip trembling, "what is it, Dawson? Are you afraid I'll damper your life? Am I not good enough? Does my past from all those years ago still bother you? What is it, because I'd really like to know what I did."

Dawson sighed. "It's just that every person we know is having relationship problems and I'm afraid of what I'll do if I ever lost you. I love you so much it hurts. And I don't know what I'd do if I didn't have you with me."

Jen wrapped her arms around Dawson. "I love you, too," she said, "I know you're scared. I'm scared, too. I'm scared of loving someone so much. I'm scared of how I feel. I'm not sure of anything, except this. I love you. And there's nothing I'd rather do than spend my life with you."

"Do you mean it?" Dawson asked, "Because everyday I wonder why you chose me. I must have done something right, because I got you."

Jen was crying. "I ask myself the same thing," she said.

"So, what do we do?" Dawson asked.

"Well," Jen said, "you could start by kissing me."

When this world's closing in
There's no need to pretend
Set me free--
Darling rescue me

Joey had fallen asleep an hour ago in Anderson's arms. He sat there, stroking her hair and thinking. Thinking about how depressed she had been ever since she heard she was going to Capeside.

And then there was that Pacey guy.

Anderson didn't know him. Had never seen him in his life, at least not that he could recall. But he sensed that this guy and Joey shared something he and Joey never had.

Anderson looked down at Joey's sleeping form. "Another skeleton from the closet of Josephine Potter," he whispered, "I wonder what's going to pop out next."

I don't wanna let you go
So I'm standing in your way
I never needed anyone like
I'm needing you today

Pacey got up early the next morning and walked over to the hotel. He waited until he saw Anderson leave. Waiting behind some bushes, he waited five more minutes until he saw Joey walk outside.

"Joey," he said going over to her.

Joey stiffened. Swallowing, she said, "yes, Pacey?"

"We need to talk," he said, taking her arm.

"We have nothing to discuss," she said, walking away, "I'm engaged to Anderson. You're an old boyfriend I haven't seen in a while."

"Joey," Pacey said, following her, "you know I'm more than that. I know you. I've known you forever. I know that look in your eye. You can't deny that something's going on."

"The only thing that's going on is I'm late for my dress fitting for my maid of honor dress," Joey said, "now if you'll excuse me…"

"I can't do that," Pacey said, grabbing her arm.

"What do you want?" Joey said, turning around and looking in his eyes.

"You," Pacey said, "all I've ever wanted is you. I've dreamed for years of the day you would come back. I've planned out what I'd say and do and now you're here. And I'm not going to ruin it with the one woman I've ever loved with all of my heart and soul."

Joey looked at him with tears flowing down her face.

"And I can't let you go," Pacey said, "I won't let the best thing that ever happened to me, leave. I can't do it. I'm afraid of loving someone this much. But all I know is that you're the one, Josephine Potter. You're the one, you always were."

Joey leaned forward, her emotions letting go, and she kissed him on the lips. Leaning into the kiss, she wrapped her arms around his neck. And from the corner of the building, stood Anderson, watching them, his heart breaking. He had realized that he left his keys, so he had turned around to go get them. Then he saw them. "Well," he said, "I had to know what else would happen. And now I do."

Do I have to say the words?

As Joey was kissing Pacey, she started thinking about everything that was going on. How can I say the words I know he wants to hear, when I'm with Anderson still, she wondered.

Do I have to tell the truth?

But can I deny that there's something happening? she wondered, kissing him again, no, I can't. I know what I feel. But can I say it?

Do I have to shout it out?

And Pacey wants me to scream it to the world, she thought, but can I do that? I never was able to fully express my emotions. So how can I make my love for him known without destroying something else? You can't create without destroying.

Do I have to say a prayer?

Oh God, Joey prayed, still kissing Pacey, if you're listening, I'd really appreciate some advice here. Because I'm so confused. And what if I break it off with Anderson and tell Pacey I love him? Will he believe me? Or will he think I'm confused, and leave me all alone again, like I was all those years?

Must I prove to you how good we are together?

Sooner or later I'll have to prove my love, Joey thought, but how will I do it? It seems something always goes wrong. How will I do it when the time comes?

Do I have to say the words?

I just don't know, she thought.

Rescue me from despair
Tell me you will be there
Help me please--
Darling rescue me

Jen walked to the door. "So is this where we end?" she asked.

"For now," Dawson whispered, "only for now. I just don't think we're ready for marriage yet. We have some talking to do. I have some thinking to do."

"Well, if you need me," Jen said, pointing next door, to her house, "you know where I'll be."

Dawson smiled, "I never forgot."

Every dream that we share
Every cross that we bear
Can't you see--
Darling rescue me

Pacey and Joey took their separate ways that day. Pacey went home feeling a little happier. For the first time, he knew that he still meant something to her. Joey went to her hotel room even more confused.

When Joey got inside, Anderson flipped on the lights. "We need to talk," he said.

I don't wanna let you go
So I'm standing in your way
I never needed anyone like
I'm needing you today

"Joey," Anderson said, "I've loved you since you were fifteen. You know it, I know it. And when I finally had you, I thought, 'this is it, no more waiting.' But now, something's come up. And you know what it is."

Joey swallowed. "You know," she managed to say.

Anderson nodded grimly. "Wasn't too hard," he said, "half of Capeside probably knows."

"So where does this leave us?" Joey asked.

"I don't know about you," Anderson said, "But I know how I feel."

Do I have to say the words?

"How's that?" Joey asked.

Anderson looked at Joey. "I've showed it to you in a million ways," he said, "in everything I say and do. I've always felt this way."

"But you've never actually said those three words," Joey said, "you've implied it, and everything else, but I've never heard you say them."

Do I have to tell the truth?

"The issue isn't whether or not I love you," Anderson said, raising his voice, "that was never an issue. It's whether or not you love me. Do you?"

"Do I really have to answer," Joey asked angrily, her voice shaking, "do you think you're prepared for what I have to say? Can you handle it? Because I'm not sure you can." Do I have to shout it out?

"How many other ways can I say that I love you?" Anderson yelled, "All I ask is do you love me?"

"I don't know!" Joey said, "Don't make me answer."

Do I have to say a prayer?

Anderson prayed silently. God, he said, I know I've never really prayed to you. And I don't want to be one of those people who only comes when he needs something, but I need you now. Let her tell me how she feels.

Must I prove to you how good we are together?

"I can't do this anymore," Anderson said, "tell me now. Do you love me and want to marry me, or should I just turn around and walk away." Joey didn't say anything. Anderson felt the tears coming, so her turned to the door.

"Anderson?" Joey said feebly.

Anderson turned around, his eyes brimming with hope. "Yes?" he said.

Joey looked at her feet. "Goodbye," she said.

Do I have to say the words?


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